That’s the first word I think of when turning twelve. Life is gradually going crazy. Things happen. I find emotions I never thought I had, for people, and just in life. Things make me cry much easier and it is embarrassing but my mom said it's because I am almost a teenager. I still think over those words (when I’m not going crazy).
She's right. I notice things in my life that change dramatically, I had feelings for certain people in my case, or a certain person. I didn’t understand, why was I having these feelings? Why were things changing? The answer came clear to me: I am on the road from a girl and I am going to stop at being a women. I have already started on that road. A certain person (a boy) had distracted me from God and I needed to get it under control. I knew all my focus should be on God, but somehow that person had (not meaning to) drawn my attention from Him.
So I decided I would sit in church service instead of going to my middle school class. And, I found it easier to learn without distraction. It was strange because the boy was there, and him being there should have distracted me, right?
In the service I can pay more attention to God. I couldn’t explain why if you asked, but somehow I could focus...
Teen age life is like a messy filing cabinet... you have to sort through it, and try and organize your life files for feelings, emotions, changes, and, most important, God.
I know this is just the beginning...