Saturday, March 29, 2014

It takes faith

God blows change and trails at everyone at some point in their life. 
Just because I was comfortable where I was didn’t mean things wouldn’t change.
As hard as I tried I couln’t get rid of the feeling that my whole life was about to change. 
I didn’t want it to. I wasn’t even willing to accept the idea that I might have to leave everything  I knew and start over. Why should I have to? 

I wasn't ready to move. But God was ready to move me.

The answer to my question "why?" never came fully clear until a few months ago. This is where God wants me to be, it’s as simple as that.

And yet the mixed dislike and love that I feel for my new life kept me questioning Him.

"How are you using me!"

I didn’t, and still kind of don't understand why God would bring me here. But after seven long months I have fallen in love with my new home and  still didn’t see what the purpose of this was. And some days the only things that keeps me going is the thought that God has put me here for a reason. Not knowing what that is has driven 
me mad some days, but God will show me in due time I know.

And I do love my new home. The landscape is breath talking, the space seems to never end, and the peace goes on forever! And there are days when life just feels great! 
And other days I’m left guessing why I still don’t have local friends. Is God trying to tell me something? Give me time to fully focus on him? I never feel like I can hear God talking to me. Or am I just not listening? 
The questions seem to never end. And I may not get any answers until I see Jesus in heaven. 

Faith is what It takes. Unfaltering faith In God, Love, friends, and family....

So thanks to my mom, dad, brother, aunts, uncles, grandparents, Ellie, Ryan, Abby and all of my friends for helping me through tough times, showing me the blessings I missed and being there for me. You mean the world to me! Love!

So come and join me while I talk about the ups, downs, joys, pains, fun, work, beauty, and wonders of my new home and my new life, April 1-30!


1 comment:

betty said...

It does look beautiful where you live. It is hard sometimes to know why God leads us some place and what our purpose is supposed to be at our new place. God had my husband and me move 3 years ago to where we currently live, long story short, I went along with the move because we had prayed a lot about it and we felt it was God's will and plan for us, but there were days in the first year that I cried out many a time to God why and was very frustrated with a lot going on as a result of the move. I still know it was the right thing to move 3 years later, but I have my days of doubt even now, but that's where, like you said, faith and trust come in.

Your topic for your A/Z challenge will be inspiring to read.